His shadow

“Unto the upright, there arises light in the darkness…” Psalm 112:4

When we find ourselves in a dark place – in the valley of the shadow of death, in sickness, in pain, in trouble – it’s easy to be afraid of it. But when we’re trusting in Jesus Christ, we must remember that being in the darkness just means we are in the shadow of His wings.

A few weeks ago, my sweet sister-in-law Bekah, texted me a verse from Psalm 63:6-7 and it hit me in a fresh way as I was feeling like I was stuck in a dark place.

“When I remember you on my bed, I meditate on You in the night watches. Because you have been my help, therefore in the shadow of Your wings I will rejoice.”

In the dark, in the pain, sometimes we feel so far from God, so far from hearing His voice. But He is near to the brokenhearted, and because of His protection over us, we can rejoice in our darkest days.  There can be so much fear in the shadows, but when we’re in the shadow of HIS wings, He’s right there, and we’re actually the nearest to Him that we can be. And in that safe place is where know and experience the peace that passes understanding.

“God, Your love is precious! You protect people in the shadow of Your wings.” Psalm 36.7 NCV

For me, there have been times in my life and in this past year, when I have felt far and distant from God even as I have been in the Word and in prayer.  But as I have kept pressing in, and kept reading and kept persisting, He has spoken – in His time – to my heart, reminding me that He loves me, and that He’s nearer than I think.

As my family and I have been in the valley of the shadow of death this past year, I have found this to be true:  The Lord is God.  His ways and thoughts are higher than mine. I may not fully understand His ways, but I do know that He is good. So I trust Him.  He protects me.

And in the dark shadow of His wings, I will rejoice.

  • Amberly Tanzosh

    Jennie, I love your heart. I love that no matter what, good or bad, you are always pointing the attention of others to God. There are so many hurting people that see how amazing He is, through you. You certainly make Jesus famous and I am so thankful for your blog, because I can share it with others who would greatly benefit from reading it, and see how amazing our God truly is. Love you!

    • jennie lusko

      thank you Amberly, His strength in our weakness is incredible 🙂 love you girl!

  • Kristina Dukart

    I needed to hear this. Thank you so much for sharing your heart, and inspiring my hope in Him. Blessings to you and your family, praying for you always!

    • jennie lusko

      thank you Kristina, I’m so thankful that God would use me to encourage your heart. He is so good! So much love to you!

  • John Nasrallah

    I just though you should know, the time you got on stag at church and sang Oceans I felt as if there was no one there but you talking to God all by your self it was beautiful. Things like that and how you and your wonderful husband wear your hearts on your sleaves for all people to see, all I can say is thank you ,and may Gods blessings be with you and your family. What examples

    • jennie lusko

      thank you John for you encouraging words. we love you Nasrallahs!

  • keton quigley

    For some time now I have not been able to get good sleep. The reason: I am having a lot of anxiety/panic attacks that keep me from resting comfortably and creating such fear that I cannot sleep. I dread the nighttime, or darkness. I usually fill my mind with msn or yahoo articles until I can barely keep my eyes open. I do that because it keeps my mind occupied on other things.

    Being a male means I am not the best communicator to my wife, but starting this new year off with vigor and rebirth and freshness, I explained to her what I have been going through. She pointed me to this particular blog. Simply put, this is what I needed to read, to hear, to meditate on, and to reconfirm that it is far greater that God is in control of my life and not me. Thank you for your honesty and vulnerability. God bless you Lusko’s.
    P.S. Levi’s message titled Frequent Flyer was insanely awesome and brilliantly articulated.

    P.P.S. Have you heard of Carly Marie’s Project Heal? You can check it out, but long story short, she draws names of children who have passed from this earth into the sand and takes beautiful pictures at sunset. You can then do what you like with the picture. We did this for my sister who lost her daughter in August of 2012 and put the picture in a frame. It sits on their mantle as a constant but beautiful reminder. Below is her picture

    • jennie lusko

      thank you so much for sharing, Keton. it’s an honor to be able to encourage you even in a small way. God is so good to bring us what we need when we need it!
      and thank you for the idea of the picture with the name, that’s beautiful! God bless you and your wife and your family.

  • Amberly Lania

    Amen!! Soo refreshing to hear. The reminder that God is for us, no matter what is looks like around us, God is for us. You and your family have been a huge inspiration to me, you guys challenge me to praise God in every season. Praying strength and joy for the Lusko’s in every season.

    • jennie lusko

      thank you Amberly 🙂 He is so good!

  • EmmaDean

    This is so true for me these past few days and I love you for sharing it. xo

  • Lisa Heck

    Beautifully written. I’m glad to know that you have struggled with feeling far and distant from God, too. Since God called my son home 11 months ago, I have felt so abandoned and alone in my suffering. But despite everything I have an underlying peace that defies explanation. Indeed He is nearer than we think.

    • jennie lusko

      Lisa, I am so sorry for the pain you have experienced from being separated from your son. the pain is so deep and so raw and real, and yes, it doesn’t get easier, God makes us stronger, but it still hurts, and it’s a limp and a pain we will have for the rest of our lives. I pray God would continue to overwhelm you with His presence and His great love for you. Heaven is so close, so much love to you.

  • Sara McNutt

    Hi sweet Jennie,

    I just came across this post tonight and loved everything about it, as I could relate to so much of it; we lost our only daughter this past April. I wrote about something similar recently here:

    I love what you said about about finding this to be true: The Lord is God. I have found the same and it gives me unbelievable comfort. I was just telling my husband tonight as we were out to dinner celebrating our anniversary that I was recently listening to a John Piper sermon in which he magnified the glory and vastness of God, and I said that when I’m reminded of that and live with that in view it gives my grief context.
    Anyways, so much to relate with, I could talk much longer but I just wanted to say thank you and that I appreciate your wise and godly voice. 🙂

    • jennie lusko

      hello Sara, thank you for writing, and for sharing. I am so sorry for what you’re experiencing. the pain of not being with your child is so painful and terrifying at times. it takes such an effort to take heart sometimes. I just love that God is near to the brokenhearted, and I love that He makes us stronger in it, although it’s a pain we’ll always have our whole lives. like a limp. so much love to you, I’m going to head to your blog right now.

  • Richard Jones

    Hi Jennie,

    Congrats on fleecing the sheep, it has treated your family well.