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God Knows that Date

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I’ve been noticing the year 2012 in so many different and random places and times lately.  From the year a favorite coffee and donut shop was established, to the year my pilates video was made, to the year of Arizona’s bicentennial (I told you it was random!), and an album I just discovered released in 2012.  It was also a significant year in a magazine I just read, as well as a lot of the dates on my expired spices (I’m trying to clean out those hidden spaces!!).  And that’s just to name a few.

2012 was a significant year for my family and me, and life continues to move forward.  Our children are growing up, our lives are continuing to move on and progress toward eternity, but God knows the ache that still shakes my heart.  He knows the joy and pain that came with the year 2012.  He knows the birth of our fourth child and the death of our second child; how the year began with birth and joy and celebration in January, and how it ended in death and mourning and weeping in December.

God still knows the ache that still shakes my heart.

For me, the 20th of the month is tender; for you, there may be one date (or more) very clearly etched in your soul.  And if not now, there will come a day when there will be.  It may not be a date you want people to know about, or it may be one that has been tattooed on your body, or placed as a sticker on your car.  As time goes by, people may remember and people may forget, but it’s still your reality.  Whether others remember or not, I want to remind you that God knows it. He sees everything, and He has not forgotten.  You are not forgotten, and the pain that tends to arise at random moments is not unseen by our great and kind God.  He is aware, and He is near.

“The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.” Psalm 34:18

Not only is He near, but He’s the only One who can heal, and He will if we let Him.

“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” Psalm 147:3

My husband recently preached a message of Jesus on the cross saying, “My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me?”  And he powerfully preached how we must hold on to God with both hands when we don’t understand or when He feels so far.  Hold on to Him!  He’s got you, and more importantly He loves you.

“Let Him have all your worries and cares, for He is always thinking about you and watching everything that concerns you.” 1 Peter 5:7

Keep walking, keep holding on, keep planting your roots deep in the House of the Lord where you can surround yourself with people who will spur you on to go further in Jesus. As you hold on and trust Him, He will give you the strength you need for another day, another month, and He will give you the peace so you can turn your pain into praise.

“The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusted in Him, and I am helped; therefore my heart greatly rejoices, and with my song I will praise Him.” Psalm 28:7

And God not only knows your date of pain, but He also knows the date when Jesus will come back for us.  Let’s remember that we seek a homeland when the dates and times of this world can overwhelm our hearts and get us to feel like giving up.

“No one knows when that day or hour will come. Even the angels in heaven and the Son don’t know. Only the Father knows.” Matthew 24:36

Our Father knows. And He loves you.

And I pray that you would rest in His love and in His strength in the midst of whatever kind of date that surrounds you.

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  • elishaguido

    I love this, Jennie. And I love you. Great is the pain entrusted to you, and true is the beauty that pours out from your faith on the daily!

  • Ashlee

    This is seriously just what I needed. My daughters 5th birthday tomorrow and my dad died this easter it will be the first birthday spent without him. Gods always saves the date! Perfect. Thank you. Love you luskos!

  • deborah

    I have a few dates that I know will be etched in my mind till I go home to our TRUE HOME…This month will add another date to the 3 dates that I already pray daily I could forget. When your daughter is raped and he is someone close to your family. You have 2 FBI agents come to your door to tell you “that day never leaves your mind, that moment when the words hit your ears, when your legs give out and you drop to the floor”. Then weeks later when you sit in the court room and hear the horrific details of what he has done to your 15 year old sweet baby girl that is a day that never leaves your mind, “that moment when the Judge says something so shocking you hear the entire room gasp”. Then that day when you think no day can trump any of the other days, when you get a call that your daughter is being taken to the hospital because she has decided what he did to her is so UNBEARABLE she says ” I have no reason to live anymore”….now forward almost 5 years later and this month on the 26th of May that man will be released from prison a year early for GOOD behavior..another date to have to think about, worry about. Our heavenly father has continued to show us “He heals up the broken hearted and bind up our wounds” God has saved our dates and he has felt every pain and cried every tear with my daughter and family. He has shown us through his grace a love that only he can give us. He has given us value beyond anything here on earth. My daughter is now 20 years old, has married the most incredible Godly man and is expecting my first grandchild Aug 12, 2015….A NEW BEGINNING with new dates.

  • Stephanie Wiebe

    Thank you so much for this…for once again sharing your beautiful heart. I feel like we could write this exact post with the number 22. He comforts us in ways and times we never expect. God is so faithful. Thank you Jesus that we can say we’ve never walked alone on this journey. Thank you Jesus for surrounding us with those that continue to lift us towards Him through prayer and community. We sure do feel it!
    Forever blessed by your family. We love you guys and continue to pray for you and lift you up to Him.
    xo

  • Jennifer Lloyd Green

    Beautiful reminder, Jennie! I love you on the 20th of the month, and every other day … thank you for being in my life to remind me that through every storm, my Father knows and cares.

  • Sandra Halbeisen

    Thank you so much for sharing. I suffered a miscarriage a week ago today and feel so alone. May, 8th will forever be embedded upon my heart. Thank you for this sweet reminder of a Savior that loves us and never forsakes us. I continue to pray for the Lusko family all the way in San Antonio, Texas!

  • Kateri Rose

    Thank you so much for your words of wisdom and love. I had a miscarriage May 28, 2005 and then I had a lot of health issues that caused me to have a hysterectomy June 16, 2012 I was only 31 at the time. I’m so encouraged by you and your husband. Thanks again for the reminder that God knows and he loves us and he is with us.

  • Corrina Spelts

    So inspirational and reassuring that we can find comfort in our God for all things. Your family has changed our lives in ways I cannot even begin to describe. We love you.

  • Genevieve

    I still pray for your family very often. And I weep so deeply as I look at your photos. I have 3 girls, around your girl’s ages, one who is Lenya’s age (I say “is” because of course Lenya is alive as she ever was, just not earthly life anymore:) So perhaps that helps me to pray with an empathetic passion, so easily able to imagine the loss and the ache. Thank you for your enduring trust. “Those who look to the Lord for help will be radiant with joy; no shadow of shame will darken their faces. I cried out to the Lord in my suffering and He heard me. He set me free from all my fears. For the Lord guards all who fear Him, and rescues them. Taste and see that the Lord is good. Oh the joys of those who trust in Him! The Lord hears His people when they call to Him for help. He rescues them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the broken-hearted, He rescues those who are crushed in spirit.” (psalm 34:4-8,17-18) How your family radiates that joy! How thankful I am to tangibly see what only He could do through you. Know that you are being carried in prayer on the days when you feel weakest because the Lord moves on your behalf. He stirs up the spirits of your brothers and sisters from all over to remember you, to think about you guys, to think about Lenya, and Alivia, Daisy, and Clover, and to PRAY.

  • Jeramy Sossaman

    thanks for this.

    i heard your story for the first time just a couple of months ago when levi spoke at catalyst west. i remember reading his bio “…4 girls…one in heaven”. i remember thinking….oh boy, i don’t think i want to be the guy sobbing in the middle of a room full of strangers.

    five years ago this past monday, my wife gave birth to our twin daughters, anne & jillian. 4 hours after they were born anne passed away. jillian is doing great. she has asthma (right?) and is a bit small, but other than that, she’s great.

    every july 13, we celebrate jillian. who she is. who God is making her. but we also remember anne and morn her missing presence around our dinner table. it’s a tough combination.

    thanks for the reminder that God knows the date and that even though life moves on, kids get bigger, memories fade, that the Lord is faithful to comfort and that He never forgets.