1. it’s what we’re supposed to do

    Washing one another’s feet. Serving each other.

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    If I remember correctly, it was one of those days. Bickering, fighting, you know what I’m talking about. So I brought the girls into the living room and told them it was time to have our Bible study.

    I told them about when Jesus washed His disciples’ feet (John 13) and how He wanted to teach us to do the same. I thought it would be special for these sweet sisters to practice this on each other.

    I had each little heart tell the other things they loved about them as they washed their feet, and we ended by praying that God would help all of us love and serve one another more like Jesus.

    It was really special to see this action between these little best friends.

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    It amazes me that right before Jesus died on the cross, this was the action He took. To take a towel, and serve.  He didn’t just say, “go and serve one another.” He did it. He took their dirty, stinky feet, and washed them. Each of them. And as difficult as it is for us a lot of the time, this is what we are to do.

    “You call me Teacher and Lord, and you say well, for so I am. If I then, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also ought to wash one another’s feet. For I have given you an example, that you should do as I have done to you.”

    John 13:13-15


  2. “protected from death” #rampart

    “many have a bleak assessment of death…but death doesn’t have to be an occasion for despair but for joy.”

    It was a special weekend at fresh life as we worshiped together and learned from God’s word that as Paul’s strength was rooted in the joy of the Lord, it permeated his outlook on life and death.

    “To live is Christ, to die is gain.”

    One of my favorite points was the last one:

    “It is an incredible honor to be trusted with pain.”

    My husband said, “God gives His toughest assignments to His strongest soldiers.” And this gives such strength and confidence for us who are in the deep trenches of life. To know that God has graced us with suffering and to truly count it an honor to suffer like Jesus did, wow! What a perspective shift. This truth can change the way we suffer and I’m blown away by this and how good God is.

    And as my husband also preached:  let’s let the Gospel ring out from every area of our lives this week!

    So much love to you!

    Listen to this message, “Protected from Death”


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  3. The Greater Thing

    Seven days before Lenya went to heaven…

    I was reading a few books, one being Greater by Pastor Steven Furtick.  As I look back, I see how God was preparing my frail little heart for the worst experience of my life. These were a few quotes that I wrote in my journal and am so thankful for:

    “Yes God, I will follow You wholeheartedly into the greater thing you’re calling me to. Whatever it looks like.”

    “Your greatest limitation is God’s greatest opportunity.”

    And the second book I was reading was Balance by Richard A. Swenson, in which he talks about margin and balance in our lives and one quote I wrote down was:

    “we had better love with abandon, for what’s around the corner is not ours to know.”

    It has been 9  months since Lenya took her last breath in her Daddy’s arms and her first breath in her heavenly Father’s presence, and as painful as it is to look back in my journals from before Lenya went to heaven, I’m also so incredibly grateful to my God who is so good and loves me so much, to almost ready my heart for what lay ahead. Her death was still sudden, shocking, and terrible, but I see His presence and His love all over the valley of the shadow of death.

    Who knew that the “greater thing” in my life would look like this? God did. And He hasn’t left me to figure it out on my own, He’s with me. He strengthens my arms for battle, and He has a plan and purpose in the pain. AND He is good.

    “Do not be afraid of sudden terror, nor of trouble from the wicked when it comes; For the Lord will be your confidence, and will keep your foot from being caught.”

    Proverbs 3:25-26



  4. “protected from mistreatment” #rampart

    What do you do when life is unfair?


    My husband answered this question amazingly this weekend, as we continued in our rampart series through the book of Philippians.

    Life is unfair to everyone in some shape or form, so I encourage everyone to listen to this message. The perspective we get from Paul’s life is just so perfect for all of us as we have been mistreated or currently are or soon will be.

    To have the courage and confidence that:

    “nothing gets to you without going through Him first”

    is huge! Because we can say like Paul that our chains are in Christ.

    “When you’re in Christ, it doesn’t matter what else you’re in.”

    This a truth that will change our lives as we look at everything hard we experience through the lens of being “in Christ.”

    And the big convicting point came at the end:

    “When you’re difficult to offend, you’re easy to bless.”

    I am SO that person who can be so offend-able and I hate it! And I love Paul’s example of focusing on Jesus and Him being preached and magnified no matter what. My husband said that when we are easily irritated and easily offended and easily hurt, it’s hard for God to bless that kind of heart.

    So I pray that we would all walk in the love of God this week, to remember that God is in control and we can be in whatever chains we are in with confidence in His love.

    Take a listen to this message, and have a fabulous week looking for and hastening the coming of the Lord!

    A few pics from this fabulous weekend:

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    thank you @elishaguido for these captures.

  5. there’s no place like home – first birthday in heaven

    Last year, for Lenya’s fifth birthday, my husband picked out these red, sparkly Toms for her. She loved them and immediately broke them in on the first day. The toes were worn down that day – literally!

    I told her how they were like Dorothy’s shoes from The Wizard of Oz – “there’s no place like home, there’s no place like home. click, click, click…”



    Lenya’s birthday is today, September 8. She would be six years old.

    I don’t know how birthdays work in heaven (or what age is even like for that matter), but whatever they’re like, I know she’s experiencing perfect, fullness of joy, because she’s with Jesus.  There’s no sadness for her – the only sadness that exists is in our hearts, because we’re separated by what seems like thousands and thousands of miles to the naked eye.

    BUT seeing with the eyes of faith, we’re actually getting closer and closer to That Day when we will see our Savior’s face and our beautiful Lenya’s face, and not just see, but hug, hold, embrace, kiss, snuggle…and we will be…home.

    There’s no place like home. Heaven is our real home. This world is just a dim preview of the real thing. Lenya is home, and waiting for us. And I love that we talked so much about heaven when we were together. She had many allergies, so we would always say how there were none in heaven. A few days before she went to heaven, she was looking at the stretch marks on my stomach from being pregnant, and she was concerned. I said, “they don’t hurt, they’re just proof and a reminder that I got to be the one to grow you girls inside me. In heaven, we’ll have perfect skin.” We had many conversations like this.

    When she was three years old, we were still trying to get her eczema under control, and one night I said, “I’m sad you’re rashy, Len.” And she yelled at me excitedly (in usual Lenya form), “it’s not sad for me! Because Jesus is always with me when I have a rashy! And there’s no rashes in heaven mom!!”

    I miss her, I love her, I wish I could hug her on her birthday, but all those hugs and endless parties will have to wait and be saved up for That Day.

    Happy birthday to my Lenya-lion, can’t wait to be home with her.



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    “If then you were raised with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ is, sitting at the right hand of God. Set your mind on things above, not on things on the earth. For you died, and your life is hidden in Christ with God.”

    Colossians 3:1-3