there’s no place like home – first birthday in heaven
Last year, for Lenya’s fifth birthday, my husband picked out these red, sparkly Toms for her. She loved them and immediately broke them in on the first day. The toes were worn down that day – literally!
I told her how they were like Dorothy’s shoes from The Wizard of Oz – “there’s no place like home, there’s no place like home. click, click, click…”
Lenya’s birthday is today, September 8. She would be six years old.
I don’t know how birthdays work in heaven (or what age is even like for that matter), but whatever they’re like, I know she’s experiencing perfect, fullness of joy, because she’s with Jesus. There’s no sadness for her – the only sadness that exists is in our hearts, because we’re separated by what seems like thousands and thousands of miles to the naked eye.
BUT seeing with the eyes of faith, we’re actually getting closer and closer to That Day when we will see our Savior’s face and our beautiful Lenya’s face, and not just see, but hug, hold, embrace, kiss, snuggle…and we will be…home.
There’s no place like home. Heaven is our real home. This world is just a dim preview of the real thing. Lenya is home, and waiting for us. And I love that we talked so much about heaven when we were together. She had many allergies, so we would always say how there were none in heaven. A few days before she went to heaven, she was looking at the stretch marks on my stomach from being pregnant, and she was concerned. I said, “they don’t hurt, they’re just proof and a reminder that I got to be the one to grow you girls inside me. In heaven, we’ll have perfect skin.” We had many conversations like this.
When she was three years old, we were still trying to get her eczema under control, and one night I said, “I’m sad you’re rashy, Len.” And she yelled at me excitedly (in usual Lenya form), “it’s not sad for me! Because Jesus is always with me when I have a rashy! And there’s no rashes in heaven mom!!”
I miss her, I love her, I wish I could hug her on her birthday, but all those hugs and endless parties will have to wait and be saved up for That Day.
Happy birthday to my Lenya-lion, can’t wait to be home with her.
“If then you were raised with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ is, sitting at the right hand of God. Set your mind on things above, not on things on the earth. For you died, and your life is hidden in Christ with God.”