The Greater Thing
Seven days before Lenya went to heaven…
I was reading a few books, one being Greater by Pastor Steven Furtick. As I look back, I see how God was preparing my frail little heart for the worst experience of my life. These were a few quotes that I wrote in my journal and am so thankful for:
“Yes God, I will follow You wholeheartedly into the greater thing you’re calling me to. Whatever it looks like.”
“Your greatest limitation is God’s greatest opportunity.”
And the second book I was reading was Balance by Richard A. Swenson, in which he talks about margin and balance in our lives and one quote I wrote down was:
“we had better love with abandon, for what’s around the corner is not ours to know.”
It has been 9 months since Lenya took her last breath in her Daddy’s arms and her first breath in her heavenly Father’s presence, and as painful as it is to look back in my journals from before Lenya went to heaven, I’m also so incredibly grateful to my God who is so good and loves me so much, to almost ready my heart for what lay ahead. Her death was still sudden, shocking, and terrible, but I see His presence and His love all over the valley of the shadow of death.
Who knew that the “greater thing” in my life would look like this? God did. And He hasn’t left me to figure it out on my own, He’s with me. He strengthens my arms for battle, and He has a plan and purpose in the pain. AND He is good.
“Do not be afraid of sudden terror, nor of trouble from the wicked when it comes; For the Lord will be your confidence, and will keep your foot from being caught.”