My Big Kid This Week
Before Lenya was born, I signed up with a website called babycenter.com to know how she was growing each week inside of me. When I signed up for this weekly update, I didn’t realize it would continue on after she was born. Every week, for her whole life I have received an email saying, “your two year old this week,” or “your 4 year old this week,” and so on.
And now, I continue to receive weekly emails, and they always make my heart skip a beat.
“Your 5 year old this week.”
My heart usually fills with aching, and then, as I read what she would be up to if she were still here with us, I smile, knowing that what she is really currently doing is far far better than that.
Often, my husband and I will ask our daughters what they think Lenya is doing in heaven at that particular moment. There have been many answers, some of which are “riding on a white horse” or “riding on a flying unicorn” or “dancing and twirling” or “swimming with dolphins.” We love to think about what she might be doing, knowing full well, that she’s doing the most wild, risky, crazy thing that she can possibly do.
We may not know exactly what activities the Lenya Lion is up to, but we do know that she is present with the Lord (2 Corinthians 5:8) and that there’s a party in the presence of the angels when a sinner repents (Luke 15:10), and that there is constant worship going on (Revelation 4). We have experienced this nearness to heaven when we see and hear of people surrendering there lives to Christ, and we have a dance party – which is something we used to do with Lenya here with us. And whenever we are worshiping whether in church or at home or at the ocean or in the mountains, there’s also a nearness to the activity of heaven.
While my updates of what Lenya would be doing might say, “riding a two wheeled bike” or “tying her own shoes” or “growing in confidence” – I know we’re not “missing out” and neither is she, because she’s with God, experiencing the life she was made for and meant to live. And soon and very soon we will all be together living such a life!
“In Your presence is fullness of joy.” Psalm 16:11