1. Category Archive: clover dawn

    the Lenya-lion Locket

    A while back, we were at a restaurant celebrating Clover’s birthday. We  were eating and talking, and she turned to me and asked, “I see Lenya?”  She was referring to my necklace that I wear often. It’s a locket with a lion on it that the girls call my “Lenya-lion” necklace, and Clover and Daisy will often ask to see Lenya’s picture inside it.

    This time was different because Clover had recently started talking more, and after I opened the locket, she said very clearly to me (with her two year-old accent):

    “I love you Lenya. I miss you. I want to snuggle you. You’re wonderful. You’re beautiful.” And she shut the locket and continued eating her food.

    I immediately began to cry, and I couldn’t hold it back. I couldn’t stop thinking how Clover will never know Lenya on this earth.  Lenya got to hold and know and see Clover for her first eleven months, but it wouldn’t be the same for Clover.  It made me so sad that she would only know Lenya through pictures and videos and the memories we’ll always tell.

    Although it’s been almost 16 months, there have still been days and moments of deep sadness.  We miss Lenya so much and the pain of it all is still so great, BUT Jesus Christ already defeated this pain.  He conquered the stench of death and death itself, and His light cuts through the darkness of the grave.

    Although sometimes we feel so helpless, what we can do is keep our hearts and lives bent toward Heaven.  We will teach our girls to remember how short our lives are and how real eternity is, and continue to reach out to others while we still can, while we still have breath in our lungs, while it is still day.  Like Jesus said:

    “We must work the works of Him who sent Me and be busy with His business while it is daylight; night is coming on, when no man can work.” John 9:4



  2. Category Archive: clover dawn

    happy 2nd birthday to the clover

    This fourth daughter of ours is such a wild treat.

    On her birthday, we as a family, talked about some of our favorite things about her:

    ~ She’s always singing and she loves it. She knows so many songs most of which is Hillsong worship, but also includes Jesus Loves Me, This Little Light of Mine, ABC’s, Twinkle Twinkle (in her language Tinkle Tinkle), The Lord is my Shepherd, Row Row Row Your Boat, and a few more) The best is when she breaks out in loud singing in a quiet place or on a plane.

    ~ She has incredible manners for a 2 year old – always saying thank you and please, and no thank you, and “okay, mommy, I will.”

    ~ She has wildly curly hair.

    ~ She has the sweetest smile.

    ~ She always says, “mom, I want to run away.” (when she wants me to put her down so she can run around)

    Clover is sweet, wild, loud, tender, compassionate, hilarious, silly, vocal, beautiful. She’s our most tan baby with the lightest, most curly hair.

    Some of my prayers for Clover this year comes from Proverbs 2:10, 11, 20 which says:

    “When wisdom enters your heart, and knowledge is pleasant to your soul, discretion will preserve you; understanding will keep you.

    So you may walk in the way of goodness, and keep to the paths of righteousness.”

    I know she’s only two, but I believe God has a great calling on Clover’s life and I think wisdom and understanding and seeking God first can start this young.  This little heart keeps my on my toes, but I’m incredibly thankful to be her mommy and I want to do all I can to train and teach her in the way of goodness and in the paths of righteousness.

    I pray that Clover Dawn Lusko would know Jesus and love Him and live for Him all her days!

    We brought Clover out on stage at the O2 Experience to sing happy birthday to her:


  3. Category Archive: clover dawn

    Enjoy Me!

    Our youngest daughter, Clover Dawn, is by far our wiggliest, craziest baby.  Our other three daughters are wild and free as well, but as far as the baby stage goes, Clover stands out in this. She’s always moving and on to the next thing, always!  Ever since she was about 6 months old, when we hold her, she immediately tries to turn her whole body around to see what else might be going on, or what her sisters might be up to.

    I remember one time in particular, I picked her up and she tried to wiggle her way out of my arms, and I said, “Clover! Just enjoy ME!!!”

    And I immediately thought how that must be what God says to me so often, “Jennie, just enjoy Me!”

    How many times do we have the opportunity to spend time with God in His word and in prayer, and yet we get distracted by what’s going on around us, by what people are up to on Instagram, or thinking about the sink full of dishes that need to be done, or the laundry room that is overflowing with clothes needing to be washed, or the emails needing to be written, or the calls needing to be made or the party needing to be planned, and the list goes on and on and on…

    We see this perfectly pictured in Luke 10:38-42, as Martha is apparently super distracted with her to do list. It says she was “distracted with much serving” and Jesus told her tenderly, “Martha, Martha, you are worried and troubled about many things.

    But one thing is needed, and Mary has chosen that good part, which will not be taken away from her.”

    I don’t know about you, but I make a to do list every day, and while it’s rare that I actually accomplish everything on my list, I find that it’s so easy to overwhelm myself with the worries of the day!  But if we were to follow Mary’s example and choose the “one thing”, the most important thing, first things first, then God will help us with our to do list.  I find that when I do this, and choose to spend that time enjoying the Lord, the rest of the day falls into place (not necessarily perfectly), and usually not how I planned, but God is in control and He knows best! {my husband taught a message on this passage in our “one thing” series last year, and it changed my life. That might seem dramatic, but it really did!  You’ll definitely want to listen!}

    “Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-8